Friday, January 15, 2010

I feel small

Friday is the one day of the week that I have more than an hour or two without children. The girls are in school all day and Raj spends the day with my mother-in-law. I usually put some music on in the morning and clean the house. I rarely turn on the TV, but today I put on CNN and watched coverage of the Haiti earthquake.

Then I opened my blog and saw the photos of my remodel. My heart has been heavy all day. I almost took the posts down. Why should I be so fortunate when others are suffering? It's staggering to think about. But I am not powerless, I can say a prayer, make a donation. It feels small but it's something.

I don't know what else to say, except please read this post by AnyMommy.

11 comments:

Christy said...

I know what you mean. Donating, praying - they really mean the world and do help.

Kim said...

Oh Kirsten, I am with you on this. Deaglan was fussy all night and so I lay awake the entire night thinking about all the babies that were lost to parents this week, how people are sleeping in parks and sidewalks with nothing to protect them and I too wondered what the hell I ever did to deserve this abundant life. I've donated some money but it didn't satisfy any part of me. Something that was said on Oprah yesterday has stayed with me. When a disaster like this happens we in the western world eventually get back to our daily grind and forget about it. I felt ashamed of how often I do this. I wondered what I could do a month from now, a year from now when all of those people will still be in a state of crisis.

Sophie, Inzaburbs said...

It really puts everything in perspective, doesn't it.

anymommy said...

Thank you, you are awesome.

Life goes on, it truly does. There is always joy and suffering existing simultaneously. Your kitchen is still beautiful!

mosey along said...

You just keep writing about your remodel. I do the same as you, beat myself up for my own good fortune when others don't have that same opportunity. But it makes us more grateful, I think. And mindful.

Thanks for sharing.

Andrea's Sweet Life said...

Don't be ashamed, Kirsten. Your good fortune has nothing to do with their MISfortune. If you were living in poverty, they would still be going through this horrible crisis. The only difference is that you would be less able to help.

Keep your chin up and give those kids an extra squeeze or two.

AmazingGreis said...

I continue to pray and keep the country of Haiti in my thoughts. What the entire country is going through is unimaginable. It makes me extra thankful for what I do have.

XOXO

P.S. - Love the kitchen!

Naomi said...

I'm with you... feeling whiney for my recent post ... in light of those families who are truly suffering right now.

I've left it up though ... because at the end of the day - I have prayed, donated and they are nearly constantly on my mind.

And truth be told, it's helped to bring me a bit out of my own selfish funk ... still need to be able to tell/share/vent about the daily life that I'm living in my corner of the world.

Glad you share the photos of the remodel ... still loving it!

Susie said...

Ugh. Learning to appreciate our blessings while remaining sensitive to others' suffering.... sometimes it's hard to do both at the same time....
I love your kitchen, I can't wait to see the rest of it, and I appreciate your empathetic heart.

~Laura said...

You have a kind heart. You shouldn't feel small about something like this though. You are not unfeeling or indifferent. This house is a dream that you have for your family. A plan that a lot of work went into. It is not to trivialize either. One event is not connected to the other. With all of the hardship and devastation there is in the world, we also need to celebrate the little things that bring us joy. A home and a safe place for your family is one of those things. Cherish and rejoice in what blessings you have and pray for others to receive theirs. I really am enjoying your updates. I hope you keep up with them. :)

EatPlayLove said...

I didn't see much coverage when I was in London, so all the footage since I've returned home has been overwhelming. Most importantly they are in your thoughts, in our thoughts.